Thursday, May 11, 2017

First meeting with love of my life.

Its been quite few event that happened since last posting.  Life's bigger suspense revealed in the month of December 2011. Thing's happened so fast, that realization of happening itself took days. Its almost 5 month since my marriage, when i look back, i cannot believe that things happened before realized.

Its in November 2011,  one fine day, when daddy and myself was relaxing after coming back from a long walk, a call to daddy asking about the match from bhimavaram from kalavapudi thathaya.It was the same match which daddy was tring for the last few years. Frankly speaking i was never confident that would turn positive, usually daddy gets these kind of call 3 to 4 every week.Since the last call, life was as usual, no good new, its all hope.

Its December 2011, a lunar eclipse day, its almost near to Sunset, i was at home,  was watching a movie in TV. Call from a Stranger, which is also common to me regarding matches, but then i never thought that this Stranger would turn into relation ;). I agreed to meet him last in the evening around 6:30. I am very uncomfortable to meet, i walk to gandhi statue to meet, we had quite a few call to tell the directions. I was very uneasy to meet, finally, the bike came with two strangers, who is now my bother-in-law, and father-in-law. It was a very formal conversation, details about myself and family.

Its quite for few more days, another call from the same guys willing to meet each other families,
finally the date was finalized, its first saturday dhanurmasam Dec 17th 2011.

Its finally the big day, Dec 17th, as usual i wore the same attire that is used for all matches, yellow shirt and black pant. The venue is Venkateswara Swamy temple (Temple Street, Kukatpally). I call Ram to get the address details. We all three, amma, daddy and myself started in Swift, stopped few places to get the address, and parked car inside the temple.

Uneasiness and discomfort persists, I had no clue how to find them and what to speak when we meet. My eyes was search for them, finally i see, now my father-in-law, waving his hand. There is a huge line to get into the temple.Washed my legs and stood in line, i was still hesitant to see the girl, so i kept my head low and stayed close to my parents.

Finally when i was climbing stairs to geting into the temple i saw the love of my life. She is tall, with long hair, waring a sober dress and stayed close to her mother. First impression was that she is very innocent and fully family type.To tell fact, i have no feeling when i saw her first. I was expecting her in a saree with layers of makeup. She impressed me with her simplicity.

After taking the blessing of God finally both the families meet each other. Daddy and myself search around to find some private space to meet. Its took 5 mins to find the place, ultimately we found a place betten two huts, with a mat. Its was very quite for few minutes before daddy and mavaya started speaking. As usual, i was still hesitant, hide behind my daddy. After few minutes they left us both privately, its when my struggle started.

My pressure in pants started, but she looked more composed. I didn't know where to start, told the answer to routine interview question, "tell me something about yourself". Finally she spoke out,
her voice was too low, i had to pay extra attention to hear her. That's when i saw her closely, all looks good, but something on her was really right(i didn't realize it was the tooth cap which is odd in color). She replied back about her details.

That's all the silence persisted again. The situation was very analogues to dialog from athadu movie "silence antha violent ga vundho". I was very inconvenient, so i asked if she had any question to ask otherwise we can leave. She replied back very diplomatically "its your wish". :). Silence persisted again. Stayed for few more minute before i moved back to meet my father.

When i moved back to my father, they had a very decent conversation going. I joined there but didn't involve much, i was watching my love, waiting alone for her mother. But my confidence level went up, i see some comfort between both families. She when to meet her mother. Both family came together for general discussion for few more minutes.

All set to depart, everybody started walking towards gate. I have no opinion until then, but i see a great comfort between the families. My mother was very comfortable with Athaya. Daddy was have a good conversation with Mavaya. I  decided to stay ok for the match. I accepted once i come back to home, they finally accepted two days after we met. Thats when the journey started ;)
   
                                      --- to be continues..watch for next episode.



















New addition to family.. Is it He or She?


Prega News! Do you know this? I never heard this until my love asked me to get one to confirm the
pregnancy. We did the test but not sure whether it is positive or not. Manual says that there should be two
solid lines, but we had one light line. Should we celebrate or not is the confusion. We had the same suspense
for the entire day, we finally decided to go a lab for the pregnancy test to double make sure before we 
make the announcement.

yaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... its positive, the lab assistant brought the report, she has no feeling on his face. I never saw such a pale face. The pressure was finally revealed. The ultimate announcement is made public.
Frankly speaking its was unexpected.We celebrated the good news with a cake ;) All happy.

Life is changing different phases, but my fissure issues is bothering. i finally decided to go for a definitive treatment surgery. Its almost two months since the surgery, still the problem persists. My love is gaining weight,  she is close to 6th month. 

We are currently expecting a Boy. We always reference the baby with the masculine gender. Lets see who it 
will be... Is it He or She?. Monthly visits, blood test, Scanning are going on well,  latest we had TIFFA scan and Triple H blood test waiting for the rests. Some time i feel sad when my Love feels unwell. Especially, every blood test to her makes me more painful. Hats of for the Motherhood, double hats off to my Love for her maturity and Understanding. 

At midnight. ..

Back again after a long 2 months. Yes i understood the question, why the hell is the name.? Its a simple answers, its midnight when i am blogging. ;)  Yes, you are correct, i got up at 2AM. One thing that i don't understand is, why would i always endup in blogging when the frustration hits a peak.

Life as usual, thing are as at stand still. There is only one thing that i still admire, change is life. Its almost 2 months since my parents are staying with me. Best part is the Home food and the time with my mother. Only thing that i don't like is, mother tension, its because of my restlessness and frustration, any mothers heart with have the same pain.

Too many thing to complain now.. appraisal, politics. I think i am part of the politics now, its the only thing that i never want in my life. Some time i am feeling bad i am part of it, but no option its the only way to survive.

One new thing that is cropping up is the property sale, Land or Appartment is the confusion, don't know if something will workout or not. I know, its not that one i need it right now. Its part of the life. If i keep worrying about the same thing again and again. Life will be stand still.

Still looking for good thing to happen.. :)

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Life to a U-turn

Its almost  6  months since the last posting..There are quite a bit changes in life and many disappointments still. Still hoping for the  good things to happen.

Life is in a stand still for the last couple of years, all decision where delayed waiting for the fate to decide on the future. Now things are different, I took massive decision to try to get control of the things. Relocation back to India for good, a big thing, there are many friend against the idea, but i am happy that every one understood.

Its almost one month since i relocated, so far life is smooth, enjoying the peak summer, sweat and the pollution.I am enjoying the driving, all the zig-zig's,sudden brakes and serious took on the other as if its totally their mistake in the traffic, its all back after 5 years. Only thing that is consistent in life  is the Chicken Biryani. I think i might have put on 4 to 5 kgs in the last few weeks.

Personal life is screw a bit more, things are still on the dark side, nothing worked out so far, no improvement,
no prospects. I get irritated more often, completely restless, only one question is life what next? I am fed up of this, i am planning again, but this time i hope it will workout.

Finally, i am shifting my family to Hyderabad, it took 3 weeks to finalize a house, a 3 bed room spacious house in a ordinary locality :) yes an effective person does it in 1 week, it took me a 3 weeks long.But i have an excuse that i am not in the city for last 5 years ;)

Planing may thing in parallel, what to complete GMAT this time, Improve the fitness get stronger because its almost like 2 years since the back issue occured, and finally marraige hhhhhhhummmmmm its the most irrirating part it been hanging around for 3 years.  Sounds like everything will workout, low burden project,
home food, no deviation, and the best part is the trust in God is back.

New few week looks a bit hectic to setup the house and driving the Hyderabad road in the new maruthi shift ;).

Not taking decision is the worst , than bad decision. At least  learning would have happen if bad decision is made.

Life as on 29/05/2011




Wednesday, November 10, 2010

When life give you lemon, make lemonade !!

As the old saying " when life gives you lemon, make lemonade !! " there are few times in your life  when you realize that instead of you controlling the life,its the life which controls you. This is nothing that can be done, all you need is HOPE!. All the time you think  is to improvise but every attempt leads to the one single lane confusion and frustration. There will be too many thing that linger behind you mind. 

There are million times that i hear that "you should plan for the future". I always have a confusion whether this really works. Nobody in this world wants to be unsuccessfulness. If everybody does planning why does there are only very few successful. 

Every moment your plan for the different future. The plans are so different  which makes you feel the uncertainty in every thing at the end of the day. 

- Life As on  Nov 10th 2010